Essays on Development & Education
EEF- Excess Energy And Frustration
For years I had a name for a feeling that I assumed was just mine.
I called it EEF: Excess Energy and Frustration.
It wasn’t anxiety. At least, it didn’t feel like anxiety.
It happened after days when I had done almost nothing. I’d spend hours sitting around watching movies or scrolling or simply existing without really moving my body. Eventually a strange sensation would arrive. My body felt like it was vibrating. Restless. Irritated. As if there were energy trapped inside me with nowhere to go.
The odd part was that I didn’t want to move.
When Did the World Reorganize?
The edges had been there all along. Gravity. Meaning. Embodiment. Attention. Relationship. Symbol. Horizon. Promise. Participation. I had named each of them separately, in different studios, different rehearsal rooms, different conversations, different seasons. What I hadn't yet understood was that they were all describing features of the same territory.
The territory is time. Not clock time. Not the time that runs in one direction and can be measured and managed.
A Physics of Meaning
We speak as though reality were made of objects — bodies, buildings, books, brains. Yet most of what shapes a life cannot be found inside any single object. It lives in patterns, relationships, distributions, and invisible conditions that quietly decide what becomes possible.
This is the research for The Physics of Meaning
Regenerative Developmental Theory
Regeneration is development that leaves both the individual and the larger relational field with greater capacity for future participation.
Regenerative Developmental Theory explores how children grow through embodied participation, relationship, symbolic meaning, and meaningful contribution. It asks how education can cultivate capacity without requiring children to abandon their bodies, perceptions, emotions, or inner sense of self in order to belong, succeed, or be understood.